Am I an Addict?????
by Anxious One
I have been doing cocaine for about 12 years now. It has got worse over the last 5. I am not the type to do a 8ball a night, but more a couple of lines 3 or 4 nights a week.
I can't remember the last time I went three weeks without a line,since I've started counting the days. Some people say I do it out of boredom cause I work at home at my own pace and when night comes - I start getting anxious(I do have anxiety problems)and bored.
I am currently on a "two week roll" at the moment(sober roll,sorry)and the thing is I don't have to pay for it and is easily accessible for me.
Having a few drinks seems to throw my willpower right out of the window also. I could go on forever but I think you get the point.
Hi Anxious One
The big question is this - is your using negatively affecting your life in any way? In other words is it affecting your work, relationships, health, mental state in any way adversely?
If it is - and you can't stop by yourself despite knowing these things and wanting to - then you know you have a problem.
Being an addict isn't only confined to those people who go hard at it every day. May addicts binge, and then go through periods where they're able to stay clean. But it never lasts.
It sounds like you're using cocaine to self-medicate to help with the anxiety as well. That's always a dangerous game to play, and through experience I also know what havoc alcohol can play in leading to using other substances.
If you can walk away from using cocaine now without a problem - then maybe you're one of the lucky one's who can use drugs successfully only on a recreational basis. But from what you say it doesn't sound like it.
Take this test for addiction
and then also read through the various signs of alcoholism and addiction
(they're pretty much the same for alcoholism and drug addiction) - and you'll have a pretty clear idea of whether in fact you are an addict.
Then come back and we can help you decide what course of action to take.