Paula's Story: I Feel Like I Could Lose Everything Because Of My Drinking
I am a 32 year old mature student studying nursing, have a fabulous 5 year old daughter, a wonderful boyfriend and home that we share together.
However, I drink so much wine that I'm sure I have a problem, because I know it is killing me, destroying my life, and yet continue the behaviour.
I could drink up to 2 bottles of wine if I am not working the next day, and average about 8 bottles a week I would imagine.
But the effects the next day are horrendous, I end up hating myself, for inflicting the awful effects of a hangover and guilt, of not being a full mother to my child.
I shudder to think of anything serious happening to me, and her being left in life without her mother. The organs of my body must be effected by this, especially when I smoke like a chimney when drunk.
The next day I eat very badly, eating junk food just ease the hangover, and do absolutely no exercise despite my good intentions. My health is being destroyed, and it is etched all over my body and face.
Can I tackle this thing by myself? I would be mortified to talk to anyone, and couldn't bear sitting with a group of people talking about my problem to strangers. It just puts me off so much. Is there away I can help myself, by myself? I really hope so.