My Homeless, Drug Addicted, Angry Brother that Doesn't want Help!
My brother is 5 yrs. older than I; he will be 35 next month. He has been using drugs/alcohol since he was 15. My family & I have undergone so much pain over the years dealing with him. In my opinion, addiction is the worst disease b/c for some there is no longer any hope for recovery, and we just hope that either a miracle will happen, or worse, it would all just end.
I know that sound so final, but the pain is unbearable! Instead of going through the past 20 yrs of my brothers life, I would like to explain the past 2 years & see if anyone has any advice.
January 2010: Our mother passed away from an "unintentional drug overdose" At the time, my brother was serving an 18 month prison term for theft of prescription drugs. He was in confinement & was not aloud out of prison for the funeral. Heart breaking for him & I.
October 2010: My brother was released from prison, I drove 9 hours to pick him up. I cried when I picked him up but he was stone faced & wouldn't talk to me a/b anything. I helped him get some clothes & took him to the place he was going to spend the night at. Within 3 months of being out of prison, he was arrested for the theft of prescription drugs.
Since his 1st arrest, he has been arrested an additional 3 times. All for theft. He spends 2-30 days in the county jail & then they release him & he goes right back to drugs.
Currently he has been doing Bath Salts, which is currently a legal product to buy in Ohio. (Research it ... it is a horrible drug)
Any how, I am lost & worry constantly about him. I do not enable him at all & I don't even call him. I am worried about him, but I am also worried about myself. I am falling farther and farther into a depression & don't know how to deal with this anymore. I miss our mother & just want & need my "old brother" back. I need his support so that the two of us can grieve.
Any support/suggestions would be helpful. I cannot afford an interventionist or fancy rehab. I have found a couple state run rehabs in OH, but my brother has to pursue the help himself & don't think he is mentally capable of doing that. I really think he is severely mentally ill & that someone else needs to step in, but no one will help.
Thanks for letting me vent, & best of luck to everyone else dealing with a loved one with this horrible illness.