My Father's Alcoholism: Feel Like I'm Being Stabbed With a Knife ...
I am now 15 years old, my parents divorced when I was about 12 years old. It was really hard on me and my siblings but we managed to go through it.
They divorced because my dad was a serious alcoholic and a cheater. He used to beat up my mom in the middle of the night ...
I still live with both my parents. My dad lives in a house and my mom in a condo and only about 10 minutes away. Every night I cry, because I'm so sick of my dad drinking. He starts doing harassing calls, annoying me, sometimes kicks me out of the house, or beats up his girlfriend ... or tries to touch me myself, when I'm defending myself.
I really feel depressed and very lonely. I don't want to live like this anymore, very often I dream about leaving my dad and living with my mom forever. My dad never even gives attention to me. He has a "gold digger" girlfriend, that only uses him for money. He is also very selfish and doesn't give a damn about me or my siblings. Only himself and his gold digger.
The drinking has to stop because I can't live like this anymore and I'm sick of crying under my bed every night hoping everything will be okay. I'm sick of faking a smile on my face when I know deep inside I am hurting so much. Like someone stabbed me with a knife. That's how I feel.