Many Chances, Same Results - My Struggle With Alcohol
I am going on 10 years of marriage and I love my wife and kids more than anything in the world yet I still drink. I am not violent, I am very involved with my kids and I am a good dad.
I don't go out often but when I do its to the point I black out. For my whole life it has been the same thing - get drunk, live the moment, and narrowly escape trouble. I have been pulled over many times and always got away. How many more chances do I have?
There is alcoholism and depression in my family and I fear how I will end up. I have given my wife many sleepless nights either by not coming home or coming in at 4-5am. She has threatened me with divorce, separation, and the possibility of not seeing my kids yet it doesn't phase me.
I have a great job, new house, and money in the bank yet I still push forward with the same lifestyle. I hate putting her through this yet she is still here. I can't say I will not drink again or if I will still continue the same pattern but what I can say is that I will not drink today, we will see about tomorrow. Day by day.