"Grass in the Shed:" How My Addiction To Drugs Started ...
I remember it all started with one cigarette about a year and five months ago, I still smoke cigarettes to this day. When summer time came and my best friend had her baby, she got depressed and decided to start smoking weed again, unintentionally, I joined in just to experiment with Marijuana.
It all started out in her dad's shed, that we would go smoke out in and smoke with him in it, I didn't like weed at first, I didn't know what to expect until it made me trip out and I felt like I had to crap and vomit, yet I was hungry. I was all mixed up. I was only 16 years old.
But as time went by, my weed smoking went from twice a week, to every other day, to everyday. There was times where I was high on weed all day for weeks straight. I couldn't concentrate on anything and my mom and dad were so mad at me and couldn't stand the person I became.
My parent's were already mad that I had to repeat my sophmore year at high school online and all the bad habits I picked up over a six month time frame. As time passed, I got into pills, my second love to take when I would smoke marijuana. It was the best feeling I ever had and never wanted to come down, until it took me down.
It all happened when my friend and I were up late and couldn't sleep at like two in the morning and she said " Hey! I got something for ya girl!". I said "Really, what is it?". She said "Don't tell your mom but, I got some Oxycodein, and it's some strong stuff, want to try it?". I said " Heck yeah!".
And I took the pill, and waited for like fifteen minutes, then it kicked in, my friend and I stayed up talking and staring at my purple light bulb for two hours, just laughing and being ridiculous. The next day my friend and I went to see
a scary movie with her mom, and I traded her something for another oxycodein, on an empty stomache, I didn't know what to expect. So being dumb I took the pill and struggled to stay awake through out the movie, that was the longest movie I ever saw and it didn't even scare me one bit.
That night I vomited and got really sick from not eating. I eventually took vicodin with weed, I loved it. Snorted percocet's with friends and got so high that I fell down my friends steps and strained my foot real bad after christmas. I lied and tried getting more pills from the doctor, but that didn't work.
I eventually got so high on oxy's that I turned all white and about hit the floor in my friends garage. Recently, I have avoided my so called " Friends", and because of doing so, I have good grades again in my online high school, get some privileges to go out, I get to spend more time with my family and can have a functional relationship with people around me.
I find it so hard and tempting every single day that a problem comes in my path, but I continue to stay focused with my school and helping my mom out with my siblings. I realized that the drug that I thought relieved my stress, only caused tons more of stress.
I am looking for a job and plan to go to summer school during this summer to get my Jr. credits made up so I can graduate next year instead of waiting two more years. Anyways, I hope to stay clean and not fall into such a deep stress and depression that was so hard to climb out of, I don't ever want to fall so hard in my life again.
I just have to make better choices of who are my "Real" friends, and who aren't. That's why there is people, places, and things. It just depends on the choices you make to stay away or continue to ruin your world and everyday things.