AA Isn't for Me ... Is That Okay?
Hi my name is Angela and I am an alcoholic. I have been sober for nearly 2 years. I was in rehab 4 years ago where I was introduced to AA (which I have never felt comfortable in) . When I left the rehab I then went onto binge drinking attending the occasional meeting. Finally I did stop and got myself a sponsor, followed the steps and live this way with the help of my Higher Power.
I find meetings very depressing and also I do not like to talk in large groups. I got sober to get a life and feel I do not want to go back to AA on a regular basis. Is this dangerous, or should I go with my feelings? I feel great now getting fit again, walking my dogs. Simple things make me a happy now. AA meetings don't make me happy!
Great to hear that you've come this far. AA isn't for everyone ... and there are a lot of people out there who achieve sobriety and happiness without the help of AA. So you need to do whatever works for you!
If you're managing to stay sober and feel great without AA ... then simply keep doing what works for you. No point in going to meetings if they make you feel miserable.
The secret to achieving lasting sobriety is about finding a recovery program
that works for you. Now that could be via a formal program like AA - or simply your own 'program' that involves getting fit and healthy, nurturing your mind, and feeding your soul ... in whatever way works best for you.
I think AA is a great program and there's a reason it works for millions. But I haven't worked the steps or been to a meeting in years. I just felt I could progress better in my own way, and so I keep on track through regular meditation, trying to keep healthy, hiking in the mountains and reading good books, plus helping others where I can through this website.
So don't sweat it. As long as you're being honest and true to yourself, keep doing whatever works for you.
All the Best