Never Saw The Signs: My Boyfriend Shooting Up and His Heroin Addiction
My boyfriend just recently got admitted to rehab. He lived with me and I never saw the signs of him shooting up. I was so blind to it all. He was such a good guy to me but I saw mood changes when he was around other people.
He has told me he loved me and everything but I feel every time he did he was high so I don't even know if I know the real him.
I feel so dumb and naive for not seeing it. We cleaned out his car and room the other day and I for the first time in my life saw the needles and spoons he was using. I broke down and now its an imagine I cant get out of my mind. I'm only 20 and I never expected in my life time to see that.
I pray for him everyday hoping that this time in rehab he will get passed all this and get better. I don't care that I'm hurting - I'm more worried about him getting better. I don't know if that is good or bad. I know he didn't mean to put me through all this but he is and I don't want to blame him.
I have such a big heart that I would rather cry every night and have sleepless nights just so he can get better. I would love responses on what to do.