I’m in Recovery from Alcoholism ... Can I Smoke Marijuana Occasionally?
I was an active alcoholic for close on 9 years. Been sober now for close on 2. Recently I’ve been thinking about whether smoking marijuana occasionally would be a big deal. Drugs were never a problem for me and apart from dabbling with a few different substances from time to time when I was in active addiction to alcoholism, drugs just never did it for me in the way alcohol did.
So I’m thinking why would smoking the odd joint be a big deal? I see it as a fairly harmless way to just relax and unwind on the odd occasion. Now I know that the prescribed way is that as an addict, you need to abstain from using any mind/mood altering substance, but I honestly don’t think it will be a problem smoking the odd joint because I have no desire to do it on a regular basis.
Is it honestly worth the risk putting your hard-earned two years of sobriety at risk for the occasional joint? You’re right ... it may not be a problem. But what if it becomes one? There’s a reason marijuana is a gateway drug to harder drugs for many people, and one of those is that once you’ve crossed the mental threshold of using a drug (even if it is perceived as fairly harmless and non-threatening), it becomes much easier to progress onto using something else.
You say drugs were never a problem for you, but as an addict, it’s ultimately not about the substance you use - because you’ll find something to fill the void left by alcohol. Cross-subsidisation is a huge problem for an addict because even though your drug of choice is the primary threat, there are plenty other substances out there that will gladly fill the emotional void alcohol did, even though you don’t expect them to.
So the bottom line is, I don’t think it’s a good idea. Yes, you may be lucky and it’s something you manage to do successfully without a problem. But I don’t think it’s a risk worth taking. I think you should also be examining your motives as to why the sudden need to want to use marijuana to help you relax and chill out ...
There are a lot of other things you could be doing to help with that. Take a long walk, do some exercise, read a book, take a vacation, do some yoga, meditate, dance. Our minds can be very dangerous tools sometimes and be easily led astray once an idea takes hold. So nip this one in the bud, and get your focus back on your recovery. You’ve done so well this far ... don’t throw it away now.
All the Best
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