I Desperately Need Help For My Crack Addiction
I am struggling with a disease. This disease named, Crack. It has taken over my life for about 8 years now and I don't know how to cure it. I need help. I beg God to please take away the taste and need for it out of my life. But he doesn't hear me.
My family wont understand. All they know how to do is judge. I understand their ability not to cope with it. But I need help. I need someone to talk to who understands the disease and who can help me without hurting me anymore than I already have myself. I'm tired of wrecking every relationship I have because of this disease.
I want to be happy and live a normal life without it. Someone please help me. I've begun to think suicide. But I am not ready to die. I have do many talents and ideas and wants. But I can't get past this. I have a family to help to provide for. Thank God I have no kids.
But I have people around me that need me. I can't afford to go to a residential rehabilitation facility. I don't know where there's help. I am here in Miami, Florida. And it seems like all the places that can help are not giving help without insurance or money to receive it.
Please if anyone out there feels me and understands my pain. Please, I mean I am begging. Please contact me before its too late. I find myself so depressed at times. I just want to die. I lie and cheat and steal to get it if I have to. And I know I'm better than this. I need help. I feel I'm living my last days...
Hi Eluv, as hard as things are for you right now, don't give up on yourself. You can beat this, even if you can't afford drug rehab right now. So just try slow down, take a deep breath, and let's put a plan together for you to get the help you need ...
Firstly, not all rehabilitation facilities cost a lot of money or require insurance. Many are largely or completely government subsidised. Have you tried this Substance Abuse Facility Locater
by the US
Department of Health and Services. They also have a helpline you can call for assistance in finding you a program if money is a problem - 1-800-662-4357. So don't give up on your search trying to get the professional help you need.
Secondly, even if rehab is absolutely not possible right now, you can beat your addiction by committing to a recovery program like the 12 steps taught at NA. Many addicts like yourself have beaten the worst possible addictions simply by going to regular NA meetings and committing to working the 12 steps.
Because the 12 steps teach you how to change from the inside out, and so you learn to overcome the self-destructive tendencies that keep you stuck in a cycle of addiction. To find a meeting near you check out the na.org website.
So you're faced with a choice right now - believe things are helpless, in which case your addiction may well end up killing you. Or take it one step at a time, using some of the suggestions provided here, to get you started on a different path. Remember it's okay to be scared, but you have to take action if you want your life to change. It isn't just going to happen.
Hold onto the thought of all those things you still want to do with your life, and all the people you love and that love you ... and just take one little step forward after another. You're not alone - there are people out there waiting to help and support you. Make those calls, get to an NA meeting, and let the healing begin. It won't always be easy, but I can promise you if you really want it, your life will change in ways you can't even begin to imagine.
So under no circumstances EVER give up. You can do this! God Bless and Good Luck.