Mike's Story: I Want To Quit Drinking Bad.

Well I sit here at 4AM can't sleep because I drank today and fell bad mentally.

I usually drink 2-3 times a week, but when I drink its always too much. I tell myself I'm just gonna catch a buzz ... But soon after that I'm wasted ... useless.

I'm probably going through 3 litres of vodka a week ... for about the last 4 years

I hate it and don't want it anymore. God has given me so much - I have a great wife and two beautiful children and they deserve a better husband and father. I hide my drinking from them as best I can. My wife is suspicious I think.

Either way its got to stop.

This is the first email or action I have ever taken to address this problem and I think just saying out loud will help!

So this is it I'm done. No program - I'm just gonna man up and take responsibility and fix this before it destroys me.

Thanks for letting me vent.

My Comment: Mike - you're on the right track. The first step in getting yourself sober is admitting your problem. Well Done! And you seem to be determined to sort out your alcoholism once and for all.

My question however is - why don't you want to do it through a proper program? If you really want to man up - get professional help - it will make a huge difference.

Asking for help isn't a sign of weakness - it's a sign of strength. An addiction to alcohol is no easy thing to overcome, even more so alone.

At least get yourself to a few AA meetings - check it out, be open. You'll probably meet a few people who've got a story like yours and who will be able to give you advice on getting yourself back on track.